Thursday,
November 01, 2012
- Funny book
quote
“Anything I should, uh, know?”
“You’re
expected not to know anything.”
Ah, then I
might even exceed expectations. –The
Blinding Knife
Friday,
November 02, 2012
- Having
your Bishop walk in and catch you red handed… in the middle of magnifying your
calling, good feeling haha :D
- The
problem with trying new Subway subs. If I picked the bread, the cheese, the
veggies, and the condiments, how do I know if I even made it as intended?
Sunday,
November 04, 2012
- Excellent
home teaching quote in the priesthood manual I’d like to implement! “Each visit
should focus on a planned purpose. Before visiting a home, companions pray
together. They discuss ways they can strengthen those they will visit."
(pg 42? Melchizedek priesthood section
- Home teach
on other days of the week so people have the opportunity to feel the spirit on
other days than Sunday.
- Text home
teachee’s when dozing at work. Good way to chat with people when you need.
- So I
failed Saturday. I had the whole day open until a birthday party in Salt Lake
at 6:30. I had all sorts of good intentions to be useful. But all I did from
8-5:45 was listen to an audiobook I’ve already read, and play a flash game. I
kept thinking I should at least go home and hang out at my parents place, but I
didn’t until after the birthday party. I decided to sleep over there (Gambit
slept with me! So worth it! Love home :) ) and I found out Mom missed me extra,
Dad could have changed my oil, and Mason went to his first dance! And I missed
the opportunity to be there and get excited with him!
So the next
morning I left to get back for church, and as I was driving away, I felt like I
should check our “grab from home” list. And “cereal” hit me hard. And I was
like “am I being prompted to grab cereal? Nope, I’ll be late for church, that
wouldn’t make any sense.” But I kept feeling prompted, and I totally failed to
listen to promptings Saturday. So I was
like “FINE!” and I went back. As mom was bringing out the cereal, I noticed my
pee hose was totally twisted! And that would have been trouble! THAT’s what the
prompting was about! Yay for following!
- So random
thought inspired by Mason’s dating. He is mostly-officially dating his first
girlfriend, who happens to be CJ’s first girlfriends younger sister, small
world eh? Anyway, Mason has a goal to not kiss a girl until post-mission, or
something along those lines. And he was taking Amy to their first dance, but he
was afraid if she wanted him to kiss her he’d have to say no and it’d be
awkward or what not. Anyway, on the date, Amy was like “we need to talk about
something” and Mason was like “uh-oh”, and she basically conveyed “I know we’re
dating but I don’t want to kiss yet, is that ok?” haha!* (*story retold from a
secondhand account a month after hearing it). Anyway, the interesting part to
me was, Mason was worried and didn’t want to kiss, so clearly he wasn’t putting
pressure on her. Amy was feeling pressured enough to talk about it, so clearly
she wasn’t putting kissing pressure on him. So who was? Society? Peers? Lame.
- I feel
like Word should have the same level of spell correcting that smart phones do.
- I feel
like I have bursts of random thoughts. I recognize partially why though.
Thinking about interesting thoughts makes one receptive to more interesting
thoughts. And when I finally flesh out my short note thoughts so I can post
them, I’ve spent a bunch of time thinking, so I have a bunch more interesting
thoughts right after I post. It’s usually not until after a cycle of a week or
two of mindlessness and back to thoughtfulness that I finally post them though
haha.
Monday,
November 05, 2012
- I posted
this today on FB:
“Today is my
8 year breakneckversary!!! In honor of this day, I will reduce all political
posts on all of Facebook by 90% by the end of the week.
You're
welcome.”
And Steve
added this haha:
“Remember,
remember the 5th of November. The wet shoes and injuries they brought. I know
of no reason this break-necking season should ever be forgot.”
- “da Vinci
once said: ‘You will never have a greater or lesser dominion than that over
yourself.’ Then he goes on to say that ‘the height of a man’s success is gauged
by his self-mastery; the depth of his failure by his self-abandonment.” –OTM
271
Friday,
November 09, 2012
- Take time
to think about what makes your dreams more enjoyable than real life, and change
your life to fit.
Saturday,
November 10, 2012
- So I had a
slightly bad experience with Divine Comedy today. Well, it DC itself, the show
was great, it just happened to be the
venue. I tried organizing 9 people to meet at 5:00 and go in 2 cars. Instead
people went in 3 cars closer to 6 and people kept needing directions and it was
stressful lol. I used to love organizing groups and events, but I’m really not
much of an organizer anymore ;/
- Also, I didn’t
want to ask people who didn’t pay for their $5 haha. My justification is I
spend money on other people for dates, but not these people. Like I owe
everyone a little bit of money. Weird. I hate asking people for money though, even
money they owe me.
Sunday,
November 11, 2012
- I really
really miss cuddling. I don’t know how it ended up so 100% out of my life, or
how to get it back short of having a girlfriend. And a girlfriend appears to be
something I still don’t get to have yet. Missing cuddling is a common theme
lately though.
- Family
singing is the best
Monday,
November 12, 2012
- So I want
to find some ways to exercise. Even just cardio. I think it’d be good for my
blood flow. This morning I couldn’t sleep through bowel care, so I decided to
hold up my arm and bounce it until it got tired. I did literally 1000 and my
arm still didn’t burn :/ need to find something better haha.
- I was so
excited to be at work today, I literally peed on the floor. Take THAT Monday!
- I should
eat lunch with others at lunch, makes deciding where to eat practically
meaningless to me.
Wednesday,
November 14, 2012
- They laid
off Naor, Chad, and Dinesh today. I was shocked. They said it’s because they
didn’t have the skill sets the company needed for the changes going forward.
But I know for a fact Chad and Naor are far more experienced than I. The only
possible explanation is their talking about skills other than technology
knowledge, or there’s a strong likeableness factor that had people defending
me. Whatever the case I’m very grateful for the Lords hand in protecting me in
this position. We went from 6 EDGE developers to 2 (one moved to another team).
Friday,
November 16, 2012
- Showed up
to work today with no shoes haha. Woops.
- Funny how
some people dislike the attention in small settings but hate being ignored in
large settings.
Saturday,
November 17, 2012
- Mormon
1:16 The people were so wicked that Mormon was forbidden to preach by the Lord?
Yikes! Looks like our society has a ways to fall yet sadly. It’s kind of nice
that we know the world will fall so far though, it makes it much easier to find
hope for the future knowing things are going as expected.
Sunday,
November 18, 2012
- Reading
through old institute notes, found this quote from Brother Bartholomue. "If
I were the devil, I'd know I can't get the saints to sin. I'd just make them busy."
Strikes home! What’s worse, I’m not even busy, and I’m still terrible at
missionary efforts.
- if you knew the Savior was
coming tomorrow, what would you do differently today?
how can I reach out and bring
others to Christ?
Sunday, November
25, 2012
- As a
family we were discussing with Ryan his objectives with the custody battle
(that’s coming up late December). And there was a slightly contentious air. But
Charie made a comment that instantly brought the spirit in and I was at peace
with the topic afterwards. I really do want a girl like that.
Tuesday,
November 27, 2012
- I think
I’d be more reluctant to marry a divorced 20 year old than a divorced 25 year
old. If it’s right though I’d go for it either way :P
- read an
Isaiah chapter until you learn a principle regularly.
Wednesday, November
28, 2012
- To
increase your desire to serve others, increase your testimony of the atonement.
(Advice to Amber in MTC)
- Moroni
7:45 replace the word charity with your name to learn what you need to do to be
more like Christ. “And Corby suffereth long, and is kind, and envieth not, and
is not puffed up, seeketh not his own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no
evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth, beareth all
things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.” Well let’s
break this down! Note these all probably depend on the category/circumstance.
But I don’t need to work on the stuff I’m already good at haha. I’m still far
closer to the cocky end of the spectrum than the lack of self worth end. So don’t
think I’m too down on myself for the comments below. I need to recognize my
weaknesses before I can work on them no?
1- “And Corby
suffereth long” –I have ups and downs with patience in dating. I have all sorts
of good intentions to really study for 15 minutes minimum every day, but
somehow almost every time I can barely ‘suffer’ 10 minutes of semi-attentive
reading and I burn out. I feel like I could add more here but they aren’t
coming to mind.
2- “and is
kind” – Definitely could do better to reach out and fellowship others. I feel
like the first month or so of moving somewhere new I’m really outgoing, but
then I fall back into the comfort of the clicks I’ve created. I also always
seem to have one person that can get on my nerves. Said person bore their
testimony today and I kept thinking “just stop! You’re embarrassing yourself!”
and I could do better.
3- “and envieth
not” – um, maybe I’m ok here? There was a time I felt a bit of resentment
seeing others get married, but none of that envy is focused at the individuals
nowadays. And it’s much less as per previous dating ah-ha’s on this blog. I
would love to play instruments again but that feels more like a longing than
envy.
4- “and is
not puffed up” – definitely guilty. I still put way more stock into my own
opinions or the few people I really respect than I do into most anyone else’s.
However the improvement I’ve had in this category I’d say is one of my most
apparent personality differences between now me and high school me.
5- “seeketh
not his own” – I really can’t think of anything I do regularly that’s for
anyone but me. Even when I index or go to the temple, it’s more so I feel good
about how I spent my time than it is about serving others. As always I really
need to find more ways to serve.
6- “is not
easily provoked, thinketh no evil” – Not much to add here besides not even
having that one or two people that provoke me easily somehow. With the rest of
my friends and family I’m usually pretty patient. Actually I’ve been a little
short with CJ sometimes when I feel like he failed to communicate something
important or left me waiting around unexpectedly for a while :/ I can improve
there.
7- “rejoiceth
not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth” – I certainly don’t rejoice in
iniquity, but I’m not the best at rejoicing in truth either. I do love drawing
people’s attention to the rare times when truth is spoken I popular media.
8- “beareth
all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things” – oh,
just all things? EASY! Ok fine, dating, the difficulty of independence, dealing
with money, dealing with insurance, dealing with health, all things I’m likely
to be bothered about weekly. Believeth all things I feel I have a decent
logical grasp, but not a deep enough confidence in that faith to act like I believe
or hope for the help from the things listed above. Not completely consistently anyway.
Whew, that
was cathartic.
Sunday,
December 02, 2012
- do I often
feel like I don't have the spirit with me because I need to learn to do the
right things even without? Sounds weird to me.
- I always
tell people in life to focus on utilizing their strengths rather than dwelling
on their weaknesses. I think I need to do better focus on utilizing spiritual
strengths rather than dwelling on spiritual weaknesses. As long as my
weaknesses aren’t perpetuating sins of commission, then it’s better to dig in
powerfully where I serve best rather than try to make sure I can barely do a
little bit of everything.
- Parable of the loaf of bread.
To make dough into bread, it needs to be kneaded, beaten, and cooked. Probably
not fun for the dough. Our lives are often like this :D
