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Sunday, January 16, 2011

- “I can’t take this 10 more times” “can you hold in there today?” “yes” “that’s all you have to do today.”

- Unofficially saving seats for friends in church can be hard sometimes. When someone comes and just starts to sit down you don’t want to be like “wait! Sorry! I have better friends than you coming, you’ll have to go elsewhere.” Funny that I was thinking of this today when I sat alone in the back again. What’s wrong with me on Sundays lately?

- I need to find non-computer activities to do. Even learning/practicing programming and job hunting are good things I do that I never even need to leave my doorway for. It would actually be really nice to clean my room or do my laundry alone. I’ll try shopping alone…

Monday, January 17, 2011

- Ward activities, I need to attend my ward activities, my pat blessing even says so. I used to think of people who came regularly to church but not activities as active members but not people who wanted to be part of ward family social. Maybe others view me that way too.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

- Went to the institute fireside Friday, it was great! The speaker was a relationship coach, and hilarious. Anyway he talked about smoke kills 95% of the time and only 5% of fire deaths are by the fire. When arguing, people will be like “why can’t I buy a $400 purse? You bought a $370 golf bag!” “$370 isn’t $400!” “it is if you’re rounding!” etc etc. Here they’re arguing about bags, rounding, money, etc, but this is just arguing about smoke, what needs to be taken care of is the fire. He listed 7 categories that are the root cause, or the fire, that most smoke arguments are derived from. They are, safety, trust, appreciation, respect, validation, encouragement, dedication.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

- Hunger makes people ornery, even Lehi got grumpy when he was hungry 1 Nephi 16:20.

- “Watch out for people who act weird – they may not be acting.”

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

- I’m really looking forward to working. My singleness has been pressing on me powerfully lately and it’s not fun. Work should be a good thing to focus on.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

- I LOVE INSTITUTE! Sister Terry is amazing! I take a notepad page of notes every time. Stuff that hit me hardest this time:

- We were talking about what people think the Celestial Kingdom will be like, class members used a lot of words like “color” “mansions” “gold” “light” etc. I realized when I “picture” the Celestial Kingdom, I don’t picture the streets or walls or anything like that. You know when you see an amazing friend that you haven’t seen in forever and you can just feel the love and excitement? I just picture seeing someone and feeling that. The Celestial Kingdom is definitely more that feeling to me than any landscape or architectural mastery.

- I can’t feel the spirit in my apartment, not while any room mates are awake anyway, and sometimes not even while alone in the apt. It’s hard to meditate without feeling the spirit. HOWEVER! I remembered today that my van is a wonderful place to meditate/feel the spirit. I plan to spend a lot more time in my van, even for no reason.

- BUSY. Gotta keep busy, I’m not doing that well enough. Sister Terry was joking about how if you keep yourself busy there’s no time to sin. But it’s true, it’s when I’m idle that I feel the most lame/lonely, or I’m most tempted to do something stupid. But when I’m busy there’s no time to drift into carnal security.

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Thursday, January 06, 2011

- It's not every day a fire starts in my van when I open the door. But apparently, today was that day. It was just a small electrical fire. In the 30 seconds or so as I sat there stunned deciding what to do next it burned out. Still super freaky, I'm afraid to go anywhere today haha. Good thing I'm fixing it tomorrow...

Friday, January 07, 2011

- Amazing, I'm at my parents house, and we have those long vertical slot blinds to cover our sliding glass doors. And I happened to be position such that one blind, which happens to be swinging, is alternating letting the sun shine on my face and not. Why is it even swinging?’

Sunday, January 09, 2011

- Very melancholy day. Couldn’t even find someone to sit by in sacrament L.

- If you show up ‘late’ and they haven’t started yet, are you still considered late?

Monday, January 10, 2011

- It’s really freaky to look in the mirror and find a huge mole on your face you didn’t know existed. But it’s really relieving to find out it’s actually some meat from the arby melt you just ate. Not that I’d know this from experience or anything.

- I think people tend to think they don’t have/need to be grateful for something someone is expected (or paid) to do. Like, if maintainence is shoveling the walks, many (sometimes it seems like the majority) have a “well it’s about time” attitude about it. I usually say thanks personally. I’ll bet the same people who aren’t grateful for maintainence people doing their job are also the type that aren’t grateful when God blesses their lives. After all, isn’t that His job?

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

- Make goals based on your strengths rather than your weaknesses. Set goals to contribute to the kingdom using your strengths. Maybe building up peoples testimonies in your 1 on 1’s. Learn their strengths.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

- It’s both relieving and sucky when I figure out why a girl isn’t romantically interested in me. I figured out Ashley Cabrales today, I’m not Spanish enough. I don’t dance or speak Spanish. At least it provides some closure.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

- I feel my witty banter/joke/compliment capacity has been high lately. It’s very enjoyable.

- I’m doing something wrong, time to move towards the other end of the spectrum. In the last week there have been four (4) separate occasions where I was having a fun conversation with a girl over digitial means (facebook, texts) and we got to the idea we should do something sometime and I asked when they’re free or suggested days we should do something and they stopped responding or mysteriously vanished. One I haven’t heard from since, two told me sorry and why they vanished (but seemed to neglect answering the “when are you free?” question) and one responded telling me where she went and when she could do something, we then made plans for lunch the next day, and she bailed 45 minutes before. I like to be optimistic about girls intentions or motives, and maybe it’s all just coincidence, but apparently I’m doing something wrong.

My best guess is I’m a genuine creeper. When I’m talking to someone I usually think “hey, maybe we could do lunch sometime soon!” and I extend an invitation if I can. I’m lead to the conclusion that I really don’t read/understand people as well as I think I do though, and I must be terrible at determining whether it’s an ok time to extend an invitation. In my mind, if I only get a chance to communicate with them once every 3 weeks, a lunch invitation after 3 weeks isn’t a big deal. However, maybe in their mind it’s more like, “holy crap, every time I talk to him he tries to take me to lunch” thus the once in every 3 weeks chat. So, my current theory is I need to rarely give such invitations, or wait until they express interest first, or something. Which sounds retarded to me honestly, how am I ever going to get to spend time with girls if I’m waiting for them to suggest that I take them out? But what I’m doing clearly isn’t working, so I guess I’ll try something different.

- had another interview today, I verbally fenced with the self proclaimed jokester and the team seemed to like me from there out. They drilled me with conceptual programming questions for 90 minutes, some of which took me a while, and they gave hints. But apparently a lot of interviewee’s have walked out, or got really angry, or told them they were wrong when given the solution. The fact I kept sticking at it, didn’t [walk] out, and so on seems to have made me appealing enough. They were saying things like “we’d get you a company laptop…” and such that leads me to believe I’m a very likely candidate, so that was fun.

Friday, January 14, 2011

- Had a significant other in my dream last night. I sure wish I didn’t care about such things.

- Crap haha, well so I have no plans today or tomorrow. But if I’m going to go with my thought above on asking people to do things, what I need to do is contact some women and chat or something but NOT ask them to do anything, which would still leave me with no plans this weekend. What the crap will I do with myself? I’d DEFINITELY feel lame just playing WoW all weekend. Ooo! Programming!

- Also, I’m working on programming a turn based RPG battle system (complete with character customization) for practice. I don’t think I mentioned that here.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

- “As we seek our bread from the Lord daily, our trust in him grows”

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Monday, December 13, 2010

- “Your own problems are mostly a bi-product of your own blind spots.”

- I generally prefer video games and board games to be difficult (aka, challenging). Why do I feel different about relationships? Haha.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

- At CJ’s ward Sunday School they talked about the 6 lessons missionaries used to teach in order back in the day. Our Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, the plan of salvation, the restoration, our responsibilities, and then church organization (in that order). Like a pyramid, the first base the biggest and so on, so it’s a firm foundation. Some people turn it over and do it backwards, basing their testimony on something like the organization of the church, and so when someone gets offended the rest topples. Anyway the cool thing I got out of this is that I feel better about my current direction. I don’t feel I have a huge powerful testimony of the restoration, or lots of things, but I do have a powerful connection with my heavenly Father, and apparently it’s a good recommended place to start.

- Go to institute, it’s a basic recommendation you’re missing. Also, go alone so you’re forced to meet people rather than hovel up.

- I feel like I’m fighting some inner turmoil battle over nothing specific. I’ll probably just start be re-quitting WoW.

- I’ve started writing the code for my RPG battle system, it’s quite enjoyable J

- I find it attractive when I see a girl use “you’re” correctly, how funny is that? (addendum, the next three or so times after this that I went to write “you’re” I wrote “your” instead, and felt like an idiot.)

- Way funny so Micah posted the following status, and here’s the conversation that followed.

Micah Clements Nieman: if mankind weren't around to rule the world, what animal would? I vote kangaroo.

Andrew Clark: I think there would be a crapload more tigers

Josh Wyciskalla: Grizzlies.

Allan Wheeler: the wolf

Corby Campbell: I think there should be a crapload more tigers in everyone's life as is. Tigers are friggin' awesome.

Drew Strunk: Penguins. NEXT QUESTION

Corby Campbell: False. Tigers tear penguin faces off, penguins get tripped by their friends (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGy_7gY4f1o). Tigers make intimidating tyrant pets, penguins make tap dances. Tigers would rule the world, but the king tiger's court jester would be a penguin.

Drew Strunk: Baby penguins are so cute that their very presence would crush the very will of your "tigers" and turn them into sissy orange tiger goo.

Corby Campbell While penguins are undeniably cute, tiger babies are also cute, and adult tigers will have developed a tolerance to cuteness as a whole. Thus the flightless bird's only weapon would be rendered useless, and any necessary face ripping would proceed as scheduled.

Andrew Clark: Guys. Guys. Why can't the penguins ride the tigers and have some sort of codependent aristocracy?

Drew Strunk: Andrew, please see the following table. http://dropmocks.com/mOVmV If anything, the tigers could become mounts for the penguins... but they certainly wouldn't share in the total dominating world power. That right would go solely to the most majestic creature. Clearly, the Penguin.

Corby Campbell: Well played, but this table is subjective and inconclusive (as most politics are...) and lacks important headings like "could kill a human", "warm and soft enough to cuddle with", and "has one of the greatest iconic cartoon animals based on the species". This isn't even mentioning the fact there's a martial arts style named after tigers. A crouching tiger is fierce and powerful, a crouching penguin is taking a dump.

Drew Strunk: I feel like if I just repeat Morgan Freeman enough times, I'll eventually win this argument.

Corby Campbell: I've been in contact with my tiger colleagues, they don't have a desire for complete world dominance. They say they're willing to let penguins rule the frozen parts of the Northern and Southern Hemispheres, while the tigers maintain the temperate and fertile parts of the world, except for Australia, which will remain under kangaroo control. My colleagues are sure that through trade and diplomacy the world will be a far better place than it ever was with humans.

I'd also like to apologize publicly for my racist court jester penguin joke, it was truly uncalled for.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

- So I often wonder how much things were the same thousands of years ago. For example, I was reading Mosiah 4:27 “And see that all these things are done in wisdom and order; for it is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength. And again, it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he might win the prize; therefore, all things must be done in order.” And I had the thought, “wait, so did they have races with prizes? Why wouldn’t they? It’s not like it’s a high tech idea.” Huh…

Sunday, January 02, 2011

- Reminder to self: your hair is thick, when you don’t shave for a day, shaving on the subsequent day is painful. Thank you for your time.

- I love music. SURPRISE!

- So for a quick update on job hunting, I first interviewed for a church internship at the Family History Center with Bryan Jackson’s dad, they wanted me and he even got the pay bumped from $10/hour to $14/hour, but I didn’t want the commute and it’s strain on my already struggling van (as I write this, I’m currently trapped in my van until I call someone and have them help me with the door.)

Pursuit two, my two time class group mate Hardy Cherry got me to interview with his company CleanTelligent, they make a cleaning management software. They’ve offered to hire me too at $16/hour with a nearly guaranteed raise to $17.50 after a trial period. But it’s a small space I’d be in, and the rest of the development team would be upstairs. They wouldn’t mind coming down to answer questions, especially because one is my friend already, but still.

Pursuit three, Paul Tomlinson recommended I contact a few people, one of which responded and I have interviewed with them twice (for different teams). They’re called Service Repair Solutions and they do management software for car inspections and some other things. It basically sounds like people with the experience they’re looking for are hard to find, and having no job experience yet I of course don’t have said experience. However, I am easy to get along with and I emphasize that I learn easily and well, so I guess I’m their next best bet. I don’t feel like I did amazing on their technical questions either though.

Pursuit four, Imagine Learning makes games for non-native English speaking kids to learn English. They start at $18/hour part-time and if they like you they upgrade you to $50,000ish salary. They had me interview with two guys, and then a call back interview with the head developer. The head developer googles applicants before interviewing them and found my website. He read my talks and was super impressed with what he called my “iron will” (maybe iron resolve?) to take on challenges, he sounded ready to hire me, but I still had to do a technical test (which I felt good about). They said I likely wouldn’t hear from them until the beginning of the year, but this is the main job I want.

- Oh, I feel geared enough in WoW to not need to play solo, and I’m going to attempt to only play it when playing with the guys. It definitely takes time. If that doesn’t work I’ll probably quit, which would be sad because everyone is playing (Andrew, Neal, Leo, Drew, Jason, Micah, Jake) but meh.

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Monday, December 06, 2010

- “Destructive activities also tend to leave you feeling compelled to continue rather than feeling in control of your decision”

- I learned a lot about addiction today, a big thing being that it releases dopamine in your brain, and dopamine causes “tunnel vision” of sorts, where you really just don’t think about the whole picture. I have seen when this happens in myself, and I need to be careful.

- So I think I have some sort of expectation that if I don’t make a girl laugh a lot, she’s not having fun and thus won’t enjoy being around me. I’m thinking this isn’t very accurate, although I’m good at making girls laugh in group settings, the majority of my social interactions is one on one, and we generally have deeper conversations with less laughing. Despite this, girls seem to enjoy my company. I need to change my expectations.

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

- ‎"There's a reason God gave us 2 ears and only 1 mouth, listening is twice as important as talking. But, He gave us 10 fingers! He must really want us to poke things!!!!!”

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

- Oooh, note to self: find a tape recorder and tape Jason talking to himself for an hour so you have proof/examples for other people.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

- “The right to be right (in your manager’s eyes or in your government’s eyes) is irrelevant; only the right to be wrong makes you free” – Peopleware 135

- A thought inspired by The Way of Kings (excellent read!) but if someone consistently and reliably acts in a way different then who they supposedly are, when do they cross the line of officially becoming the person they are pretending to be?...

Saturday, December 11, 2010

- “Nothing is less productive than to make more efficient what should not be done at all.” -Peter Drucker

- Well, most of my week has been dominated by finishing my last assignments, working on my resume, and brainstorming about the WoW contract posted below.

WoW Contract

Well, I spent about 6 hours discussing/brainstorming/writing with Stephie, Mom, Andrew, and CJ about this, and I’ve decided/concluded that I am going to play WoW. However, my main reasons for not playing WoW were:

1. I hate HATE it when cute girls come over and want to do something, and I end up telling them “I can’t I’m in an instance.”

2. I often can’t think of all the other things I was going to do, because my mind keeps coming back to WoW. Thus all sorts of real-life productive things I was going to do get postponed, or delayed indefinitely. When I fail to do real-life things because of WoW, WoW goes.

3. I tend to play addictively (more than I’d like).

To combat these, I’ve decided to write up this contract, which I plan to share with many so they’ll hold me to it. It’s easy to break rules one’s never set. But if you’re one of my WoW friends who wants me to play and you’re reading this, you might want to help kick me off, or make sure I’m sticking to my guidelines. Because if I feel I’m not advancing my real-life enough, I’ll cut WoW out again.

1. If someone comes over and wants to do something in real-life, and I genuinely want to go with them, but I feel obligated to stay because I’m in a raid/instance/etc, I WILL leave mid instance, right before the big boss attempt, after we’re already saved, whatever. I’ll be that jerk that leaves everyone high and dry. I don’t anticipate this happening terribly often, particularly during Christmas break when everyone goes home for the holiday. But just consider it a standing risk that anytime you bring me to an instance or raid, I may bail. You’ve been warned. Sorry in advance J.

2. I can’t get on WoW until I’ve been out of bed and going for a full hour. Giving me time to read my scriptures, and review my to-do list for non-WoW things I’d like to do that day.

3. I must spend 3 hours a day doing stuff on my to-do list (or at least other non-WoW things I deem useful). If you’re interested, my current list is at the bottom.

4. I won’t start with a time limit on daily WoW provided I feel like I’m being productive enough. However it’s a definite step if I feel I’m overplaying. I’ll use the parental controls built into WoW, likely giving the password and access to someone besides myself or any WoW related friends.

And I think that’s it! Thanks for reading :P


Current To-Do


1. Modify resume / Apply for jobs

2. Replace back rest / Follow up on new chair

3. Study for tests

4. Read books (one second after, the overton window, any religious books, empires, flatland, Joseph Smith stuff)

5. See the doctor about your toe

6. Brainstorm/attempt ways to empty your own pee bag

7. Record music

8. Christmas shopping

9. Social security income data gathering

10. Sell back textbooks

11. for fun programming projects (CS235, mysql, facebook app, game)

12. prepare Sunday lesson

13. improve website

14. get recorded speaking message

15. magnify calling (talks to teachers, roll)

16. come up with new speeches

17. Groceries

Code of Ethics

This was technically homework, that we didn't have to post, but I liked it and wanted to share. We were supposed to write about a few principles that govern our lives.

" Alright, I find that I convey my thoughts best in a free write type environment. That being said I’ll just list some general principles and expand on them. Note these ethics are not in any sort of order of priority. They are all just things that make a difference in many of my decisions.

1. Golden Rule

Whether it’s just in my blood, or my parents instilled it in my at an early age I don’t know, but I have always had a strong “do unto others as you would have them do unto you” complex. For example, I like my peace and quiet when I’m trying to do homework on campus. So I assume others would like the same. If I’m doing homework in the same hallway as a stranger, I don’t turn on music, or have a 45 minute phone conversation, it just seems rude.

2. What if everyone was like this?

I tend to think in terms of “what if everyone acted this way?” For example, if I try to spend time with a girl, and she turns out to be busy, sometimes there’s a temptation to think “fine! I’ll just never call them again” and brood. But it’s not like I’ve never turned someone down because I was busy. If everyone quit after one frustration in a friendship, all communication would cease. Not that I believe everyone should act the same as me (we’re glad not everyone is a CS major), I just want to make sure my choices have their place in a healthy society.

3. What effect will it have on the relationship

One of the most powerful principles my parents ever taught me was that relationships are more important than events/things. I remember vividly at a very young age upsetting my younger brother somehow (I probably hit him, or took a toy, or something stupid like that) and my Mom told me it doesn’t matter why I did it, either way I’ve damaged my trust with my brother now. This has helped IMMENSELY in my life. It has been much easier to drop an argument when I think about how the relationship is more important than being right. Or to do something I don’t feel like doing when I realize how much it means to the other person. Or any number of applications.

4. Is it morally in line with the church

For the most part this is a knee-jerk response rather than something I think about consciously. But I definitely try to live my life within all the bounds of the church. I’ve never taken long to consider drugs or murder or pornography as being good ideas after all. I generally do my best to live within the standards of the church. And the times I fail I’m not usually acting under the assumption I’m doing something right, more likely I’m justifying my weakness, or not thinking at all.

5. Legality

Whether something is legal or not is also important to me. I was constantly on edge even for things as dumb as being in the park after 10:30. A big exception I can think of is I used to skip class a fair amount back in high school guilt free…

6. Am I drawn to it

Having a passion or interest in what I’m doing is important. I wasn’t drawn to sports, so I didn’t get into sports. I wasn’t drawn to art, so I didn’t get into art. I was interested in computers, so I spent time on computers. If I want to spend more time with someone, I try to find opportunities with them. Otherwise I probably won’t. This to me seems like a general human nature rule rather than a Corby-specific principle, but I thought I’d mention anyway.

I doubt this is a comprehensive list, however it covers a good amount of bases."

Like a Moth to the Flame

“Destructive activities also tend to leave you feeling compelled to continue rather than feeling in control of your decision.”[1] What a powerful statement. This is highly prevalent in video games, in the need to reach the next level, or play just one more match. But it also shows up in the draw to stay up-to-date on every sit-com, or to take illegal drugs. I’ve certainly felt this compulsion in my own life. Hopefully in the future when I feel compelled to continue it will set off a warning in my mind that gives me the resolve to take control.